He sits with his head slumped down. Again. Nothing in front of him. Again. Eyes are closed. Again. Arms crossed as he lays his head on the table. Again.
To a person walking by he looks like he is asleep.
To me, he looks like he is mad. Actively fighting me and what we are doing. Again….
But I wait…ask him again if he is okay. If he needs anything.
He doesn’t answer.
My patience runs thin, after all I have a class to get to. To teach. Why can’t he just answer? I am trying to help after all. Again.
He can tell probably that my answers are getting shorter. Less calm in my voice. And yet, he continues to refuse. Tells me it’s not worth his time. That he doesn’t want to do it. Looks for the holes in my teacher armor and shoots to kill with every word he can think of.
I take it in, knowing now is not the time to fight, and yet it is so hard until I remember to walk away.
To hold my tongue and give some space. To not guess at what is happening and draw the wrong conclusions, but instead just give time. Not to try to solve. Not to try to fix. Not try to be right there actively problem-solving, trying to get to the bottom of it all. Instead walking away before I forget what every kid needs; a shoulder, an ear, some time, some space.
And even though every ounce of my teacher mind tells me to come back to him, to try to fix it, to try again, I stay away. I just watch, take no action, and wait…
And so five minutes later or perhaps even ten, I see his head is up. He is reading, sort of, he is kind of working. No longer shut down, but at least alert. Is it perfect? Nope. Is it enough? Nope. Is it a breakthrough? Nope, not really, but it is a start, and sometimes that is all we need.
Tomorrow we try again, not stuck in a power struggle, but at least in a place of truce. In a place where we can both exist and hopefully move an inch further forward toward something that looks like learning, like trust.
Once again, I am reminded of how powerful silence and space can be. Especially when they expect us to do neither. Again.
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